Deadly winter to Snowy winter!

Deadly Biting, cold Winter!


For the first time in my life, I was cursing and cribbing about winter! the first deadly winter, I ever faced at London!
Ofcourse it was my first winter in London... boy 'o' boy... winter started by october and temperature sank like anything...In India, atleast in bangalore, the temperature never went below 17' c even in the coldest winters... but here in London.. 17'c is summer!


My fingers tend to freeze, n feels like needle prick! It really gets tuff to step out wid out a pair of gloves, a cap n good layered fur! and I always wonder... what a place of contrast Earth is... at places the temperatures shoot up to 50'c and at places dips down to -15' may be still lesser ! watta creation! 


Nov-29th 2010 - was the coldest day for me! it was 1'c and min was -2'c... was feeling, y on earth did I come to London... but somehow had to manage the dark day (most of the winters are dark here : which makes me think of vampires do they really exist in here, I donno... nyws! ;-) 


The Heavy snow! weather, was forcasted for Nov-30-2010 and this time I was a lil excited as my sixth sense ticked me off with some positive signs about the snow fall!...


Snow fall was always a fascinating thing to me, never had seen snow apart from seeing them on movies like Roja and few other english movies,... as the cold day passed by - with my household chores, had completely forgotten about the would fall - snow.


The next day early  morning by around 6:30, my husband peeped out of the window n gave me a big shout, "look its snowing"... I was in the shower... just wanted to finish it off asap... wanted to have the first glimpse of the snow! wanted to feel it! I was desparate :)


I did get time to go out n feel the snow!! the streets were like ice carpets, cars and trucks were iced too... walked on the snow clad streets, felt a lil funny to leave the foot trails on the snow! It was a wonderful feeling... felt so happy when the snow flakes were falling on my cap, my scarf... Held out my palms to feel them! 


Ah, watta a wonderful place ;) truely a snow day out!!! :)

Weekend got better finally!!!

Oh My.. My, never felt that a week could go so much heavy all of a sudden... never had felt so heavy before!

I was upset for some reason... none to blame, but somewhere I started feeling sympathetic about myself (which I never ever would wanna feel - but may be the first time I felt so). It was Thursday evening and the guilt poured into me that I would end up spoiling the weekend! I was in two states - the state of Guilt and the state of pain... Some how wanted to get over it!

Friday was all about this : There were lot of questions and things running over my mind! There were lots to analyse, to think and the main n a little hardest part was I never wanted to hold a stand, by sympathizing myself, rather I wanted to reach a state where I had an understanding of the truth... the reality! N just know what was right and what was wrong...N how I was supposed to handle things and react in the best possible way...

Staurday rose up!... I was still trying hard to come over it... was silent in thoughts, never had a heart to speak out... this is the way I am, silence dominates when I am either too angry or in pain... n sometimes a surge thought appeared as if, was it a reality or something in disguise...n ofcourse tears outlined the situation...main reasons were Possessiveness and attachment towards people... but I just cant live without them coz, I am a human.. somehow cant get over these two n I do not want to! 

I could finally come out of the blues...thanks to my husband who helped me out to sort out things...he made me to feel better and breathe easy... Things were settled n yeah the rest of the weekend was mine n literally got better!! :) and now I am all set to start a good week!

Happy week ahd!!! :) 

Looping Emotions

Emotion rules sometimes ruins...

I have always questioned myself many a times, how n why do I get emotional - anger, disgust, sad etc... 

It just potrays an individual's state of mind ( It could be biological) - but again its all in the mind! You choose to be angry or sad or happy...

But I have always seen an emotion triggering the other... and it goes on adding to the negative emotions, also have seen that positive emotions does influence to a lesser extent to trigger another positive emotion as compared to a negative emotion triggerring another negative emotion, it goes on multiplying until an avalanche breakdown probably! Thats when things are out of control!!! 

Its not only me, I guess most of us, face this, say we start our morning with some mind set and something else happens or the plan fails ... basically an emotion is triggered based on a result of an action - if the result happens to hurt you or your ego, gone! negative emotions kick fumes out in no time! and suppose if this emotion, you try to supress and try to move on for the day and if something else happens or results to hurt the ego, sentiments or ideas or basically anything against your thoughts and opinions the previous emotions add up to this negative emotion - its a cumulative emotional trigger now! n you could very well guess wat tat situation could burn out into!

By the way, when these emotions floods in, there is no time to think or we do not want to think or analyse if we are right or wrong! but self introspection is always needed to make lives better for ourselves and for others living with us!

I feel, when doing a self introspection - I have loads of questions as to why certain things happen that way, and what is my reaction... If I had reacted better understanding the situation, probably things would have got better! with creating much of distortion... 

At times we even do think and feel, we should not have reacted so, at that point of time! reaction - is due to emotions again...

Analysing and observing one's own self as someone else,(its always easier to analyse n observe or to be precise to point out mistakes in others than us!), then we actually know what is right and what is wrong... when we have a benchmark, we would definitely know or watch our reactions (emotions die, when we understand the result of an action/cause is not genuine).

To make things simpler n easier, without any catastrophies in relationships, its always better to be calmer, not to get too much elated and not to let our senses control us! It is us who have to control our senses and emotions...

DEEPAVALI - Festival of Lights!

Deepavali- Festival of Lights, Sound and Sweets!
This was my first Deepavali, after my marriage...so felt a lil excited, wanted to celebrate it well n make it memorable... Far away from homeland and people, missed them, missed the food and celebrations.


At hometown it used to be a great deal of excitement for me, my brother n cousins,lighting diyas all over on the compound wall... munching loads of sweets! with new traditional attires...
we were waiting for the signal from parents to just get out of the house and start bursting crackers - various ones! Lakshmi Pataki, Double Sound, Atom Bombs, Sara Pataki (Chain - 1000 walas) wow amazing fun we guys used to have... n of course how could I forget bursting Bijili, lighting it with agarbatthi in hand and throwing it before the wick gets burned fully! Good were those days!


Enjoyed lighting Flower pots, Sparkles and Chakras :) and Night times after 10:00 pm it was wholy n soley dedicated to Mr.Rocket, boy-o-boy! it used to fly in different directions, scaring people out in the vicinity! :) 


This time though I missed out that fun, wanted to make it a lil better for me n my husband here at London! :) 
November 5th, 2010 - Friday, was a good day for me, which brought in loads of hopes and smiles on my face, was very happy the whole day, festival mood of course :) 


Had bought around 50 candles, the previous day... Cleaned the Living room, designed some rangolis on the floor and decorated it with candles and flowers, was really happy in performing the Lakshmi pooja, had also prepared Jamoons and Samosas on the occassion of the festival... It was one of the best and happy evenings I ever had! The Living room was filled with candle light's brilliance and the Lakshmi Pooja's charm reflecting all over the place :) 
This Deepavali brought in loads of peace, contentment and happiness to us!

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