Silence is Peace

I was feeling so very restless... I was not even out of my bed... In fact the restlessness started in my sleep due to a dream or probably my analysis of that dream... I simply did not know why I was feeling so unsecured... some uneasiness... Just wanted to stay silent for the day, I dint speak to my husband properly before he left to his work, I just wanted total silence... 


But then there were loads of inner chats wid in myself... Yet, I did not want any conversation with anyone... I wanted to be silent for the whole day... It was then, when I realized that Silence was so beautiful.... though I had thousand and one thoughts over my mind, there were spaces of complete silence, may be when I did not know something, where in I had no clue of certain stuffs, I became silent... this space was good, though it was for fraction of a second... 


Inner chats still persisted, I could not talk to my parents properly on phone (I did not want to, for this day - somehow), there were guests who dropped in... I had to speak to them n be hospitable (as always :), coz "Athiti Devo Bhava"... but still something was there at heart, which was giving me the signs of uneasiness... felt I was missing the Silence... I needed it badly! for I did not have enough of it...


By the dusk, I was all alone, observing silence, as the ripples of my inner chats had feebler amplitudes, somehow this state made me more happier, rather there was lot of peace.. less chaos in mind, clear goals, of all I had a strong urge to LEARN... Silence is powerful, it helps to self realize, learn and grow!


Silence is Peace n Silence is Beautiful :)

Inner Happiness!

Feels so Gud n so happy to get over certain stuffs, which have been nagging us from a long time ain't it?
I experienced d same, few days back... during the period.. I closely observed myself, there were a lot many things happening over my mind! I was unable to Get over an Issue... none to blame in here for this! but I was so very restless... n many distortions were there at the background of my mind... never had a calmer state of mind ...


At times, I would be really happy and would have completely forgotten about that bad thing (not that bad though) only if something else had occupied my mind which was more pleasant and had a power to mask that bad thing.


And If there were any thing which was lesser pleasant or the stuffs which brought in a lesser degree of  happiness, Or a normal situation, for a moment I would be all normal n suddenly from no where the negativity, i.e the pain of that bad thing would invade  my mind... by the time I tend to get over it or do something about it, I would have already been a slave for that thought... n start feeling bad about it... The restlessness used to go on n on, until my mind encountered something else either worse than that bad thing or much better than the bad thing....


It was faintly possible for me to come out of it...to unveil the real happiness from wid in or the calmer state of mind! and I really understood the mind's nature... it has the maximum affinity to a bad thing or for negatives, than to something which is normal/gud !  


Say there are 10 gud things which u could really cherish about and let there be one bad thing, the mind blindly forgets to c those 10 gud things and immediately runs towards one bad thing!But what I learnt during this time was to take control over it, control over the mind's traversal... for that I knew, making mind more calmer by thinking about many good things around me would help me to come over it... wid some confidence I practised to get over it, most of the times I did a self counselling and repeatedly saying that, "every problem has a solution, u just need figure it out, sample out the problem, u would really get out of it..."


As days passed by wid this practise of mine... I really got a solution to get over that bad thing and I was so very happy, I guess there is nothing bigger than this inner happiness... I felt I had everything good wid me, n nothing to worry about, felt much more confidant ... Amazing feel it was, Felt very much lite at heart.... I realized, "Everything is within Us, We just need the right thought and the right attitude to attain n enjoy the inner happiness".

Don't Worry, Get over the bad, Be Happy n feel lite! :)

Sun Light - Inspired me to Paint

I am the energy of life.
My radiant rays look right down on all the regal planets.
I have seen every creature to ever roam the earth.
I am the grandfather of the universe.
My bright rays shine like a new snowfall on an early winter morning.
The innumerable rays of light can never compare to,
All the memories I have.
I give warmth to everyone and everything,
As I extend my arms of heat.
The heat I give makes rocks crackle and hiss.
My rays are a good night kiss,
That I give to my brother, the moon.
The clouds are my worst enemy.
I will never stop giving,
For I am the energy of life. 

- Jazzmin Y. Altamira

Sun Light inspired me to paint this... read these lines on net, n could not stop myself from posting it here...

BUTTERFLY

A beautiful saying, which triggered me to paint this!

SUNSHINE

My Heart dances wid joy, for the beautiful Sun Rise (rising with his golden armour), we as kids used to call the SUN during Sun Rise as, "The Golden Plate"... the orange tinted horizon...the birds flying in the foreground...the clear blue skies... with cotton like clouds here n there...  breath taking I must say...watta feast to the eyes! 


It was a brite, sunny n a lovely morning yesterday, I sat besides my window...peeping out, sun had just logged in to office then ;) me being a housewife.. dint have much to do tat day... though i had many, never had a heart to do... but just to sit n enjoy the nature, the SUN... I love SunShine.. I love flowers, I love nature... have always felt there could be nothing as beautiful as Nature...


There is so much power, the positive energy wid in the SUN, that it shuns away the negativity... He s amazing... for He is the God - one who banishes the darkness n leads us to light... 
Physics does say many a things... the rays and the energy is due to the nuclear fusion of hydrogen to helium n that's how so much of energy involved in there which is discipated... the very light, from this "Star" was one of the reasons for Life on this planet. There is so much of hope, positivity in just a ray of light from the SUN. 


SUN - Energy, happiness, Joy - when the sunshines on me...Im elated... All my egos vanish... Sun turns me on :) He makes me smile!!
Well... he does cast his spell on every one of us!!! :) I learn from him - y not throw away the negative thoughts...why not accentuate the Positive n spread a lil sunshine... as the sun :). Better to axe off the focus on the negativity or digging up the same dirt... its no way useful... strike off d egos... go calmer, be kinder... n never fear or back off!


I truly believe the saying, "What goes around, comes around." When you put out kindness and positive energy, you will receive it back.
Why not spread a little sunshine? Let's offer something positive to the world... Every Ray of Sun on me... makes me think, I learn from him... a lot of virtues...


Now, y dont u go out n get some SUN... He s waiting :) have fun! n spread a lil bit of sunshine what u got from him :)

Last Working Day...

Finally... the day came when I had to say goodbye to my colleagues - frenz...my desktop, laptop... my desk... everything...
Until this day I never had realized that I was so very attached to so many things...


It was July the 16th, 2010... the last day... where I had worked for 2 long years... I was happy to have joined this very company, the team into which I was appointed was gud, basically I was in love wid this company :) but that day came to an end... As I was quiting the company, for my decision that I wanted to stay wid my husband (who was in UK), well... d day was filled wid mixed emotions, wherein I was recollecting every gud n bad which happened in last two yrs of my service in there... 


My team aka Focal Point QA - treated me a lunch tat afternoon... one of my gud fren from d team was missing, but anyways I suddenly felt I would definitely miss all of them (though I liked/disliked them) I had frenz from other teams too... gud frenz :) I always cherish d wonderful moments spent together wid them at brigade road, having frankies, kanti sweet's - sandwitches, calcutta house's pani puri n shopping @ eva n garuda :)
Sent a mail to say gud bye to all my collegues after the lunch... n the time came to return my laptop, drawer keys and the badge... I was badly emotional...my eyes were brimmed out... I did not want to return my laptop... i donno, it was there wid me at all times... It had helped me a lot during my MS degree course,for my presentations etc... It was my best buddy!!! I love u... I miss u my lappy! I was almost in tears when I carried it to the stores to return it back.... I took stairs from 5th floor to GF... just to spend the last 5 mins wid it... to say gud bye to my dearest laptop... Finally returned and made my way back to my seat wid a heavy heart ( for one last time) - It was almost 5 in d evening, had a chat wid my gud n close buddies.. waved them a bye... n left the office premises by 6, there was feeling that I had forgotten something.. Oh yes.. It was my laptop I realized.. Tat was my last working day... wayed a wholehearted gud bye to all the trees, buildings, at and around the office... I was accompanying my fren-colleague way back home... Could see the SUN Set... beautiful it was! pink and blue sky... Saying to myself, "Change is the only constant thing... there is always gud n better days ahd!, no matter what... Life has to go ON" smiled at myself...n catched a bus to home... n tat was MY LAST WORKING DAY!

     MY DESK :)

My Paintings @ London