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All I do is think about YOU... as if YOU are really there as everybody say...
I speak to YOU every day, when I am successful, when I fail, when I am confused, when I need solutions, when I need clarifications, when I think I am wrong...
then my thoughts fly by to the fact of YOUR existence.. what YOU do, how YOU execute.. YOUR framework, YOUR protocols...
what about all YOUR creation - if YOU really exist - why so much suffering...
I am clueless... every condition, every scenario - some prove YOU exist and some don't, putting me again in a loop of confusion...
I don't know if we all belong to YOU or if we are just the lump of chemicals?? or was it just that a set of chemicals combined to aid the evolution of us....
If yes, then I feel there is no justice done, there should be someone to clean out - wipe out the bad - yes nature takes the responsibility doing it - but then who controls nature?
Can I call Nature as YOU?
The question keeps coming back and forth, while I am lying on my bed, deeply gaze at the ceiling - until I go hell crazy with loads of questions running over my mind, none answered...
though I try to answer it myself with the amount of knowledge.. at the end, I am not satisfied, I still feel it does not have any answer... Is it YOU that we belong to? Or are we just the chemical combination just like any other...
I fall asleep - with this avalanche breakdown... but still my questions remain unanswered...
I was standing there in a very very vast open space I could see the sky spanning so wide... the coconut trees were standing tall and still... it was a very old Hindu temple...it had white stone flooring and pillars..,each Gods and Goddesses had their own Gopuras(Tower - a place where Deity's idol is placed, prayed and worshipped) and I was standing very close to Lord Ganesha's gopura, it seems like I was waiting for somebody.. then within no time, my grandfather came and few other men following him holding a mummy's coffin... they all assembled at the centre of the temple, and they kept speaking something.. it was really not very clear, but I got to know that there was a big catastrophe to occur in few mins, and that's the reason everybody are here... I immediately started chanting God's name and thought that we all will be fine as we were in a temple's premises and nothing can beat God...
I was still standing there...With in no time, I heard a roaring sound, I could not find out from were this sound was coming from, the roaring repeated...I looked up...OMG! It was terrific, I was scared to hell!!! I saw sky uncurling itself layer after layer .. as if there were several layers of cloud and sky opening up to show us something which was waiting for us!... I felt a disastrous thing is gonna happen... I screamed at my grandpa and started running , I knew there was a old stone gong at this temple - yes a stone gong, it was known that this gong was very auspicious and would definitely save our lives.. Don't ask me how...:( I don't know either...no sooner I went and stood beside it.. the sky started showering huge rocky boulders, as if a machine gun spitting out all the bullets... I was standing there with a 50% belief that I would not be hurt ...the boulders came on one after the other randomly hitting anybody... One came directly and hit the gong just an inch away from me shattering the gong into million pieces... I started loosing hope, people began running for their lives, it was a complete chaos and mess.. I started running too...
I lost the belief that I would be saved...for once I ran outside the temple.. and the boulder rains stopped, with in a split second.. sky rained fire!!! yes high voltage spark showers began churning up everything, people, trees .. what not? .. I knew I would never be saved...for any moment I would have been gobbled up...I was still trying to escape from the fire rain... suddenly this thought a raised in me... "why am I running?, what is the point??... I am anyway going to die...if I have to"... I slowed down a bit...I was still alive, could see the play of fire destroying everything... another thought acquired me, "I haven't done any grave mistake.. I have been true to myself... and to my conscience, why should I run, if I have to die, let me..., let me face it", by then I had completely stopped running... I was standing still as If waiting for my turn... but no not even a single spark fell on me... it went on churning up the entire world.. but I was not hurt nor burnt!!! I don't know how... I was not excited but kept waiting - for once I wanted to face it! nothing really happened...I was there standing still...
As I heard everybody taking about 21-12-2012 - the world's gonna end...
I suddenly remembered this deadly dream I had a few months ago in the beginning of 2012... It was truly an enchanting thriller, with genuine moments of tension... I know the dream was more thrilling than the above "dream to text" converted version.. wish I could have shared the whole dream as a video ;)
btw I had not watched any movie nor any scenes nor had thought any close to "21-12-12" - on the day I had this dream... Brain is the most fascinating thing!... when I got up and analysed it, I thought those boulders could have been meteorites.. or asteroids... but I wonder why it did not occur to me in the dream...
Anyway, I believe 21-12-12 is just the end of the Mesoamerican Long Count calendar, not the End of the world! :)
so sit back and enjoy the jolly ride!
It was summer, and that one night I never got a peaceful sleep.. I was scared - not to death though, but was worried as what would happen... slowly recalled the event which snatched my sleep...
for this one time my sixth sense and my gut feeling tricked me, I was never let down like this ever before...
It was in the late evening the last period of the day, "History and Civics" class handled by Mr.S...
it was close of play and it was the attendance time, before I tell you more, let me bring some light on how high school teachers try to retain students in the class in the name of attendance, they take this attendance only at the end of the class, so that the one who bunks the class "in between" actually looses attendance..yes you heard it right.. there were a few who used to jump away from the class when the prof turns to the black board to chalk out something...
So this was one such class, where it was about 4:45 - 4:50 in the evening... and our prof started taking the attendance after the class, though technically the class would end at 5...
I did answer my attendance... and there were another 20-25 names left for him to complete... I was sure I would get late to the Math Mock test... for the reason I had to take the BMTC bus from Southend circle, Bangalore to J.P.Nagar - 2nd phase, Bangalore ( my home then).. the buses at the peak hours are horrible and the most horrid thing is the buses would not stop if its over crowded...
All this was running over my mind, from the time our prof started the attendance....me being seated in the 3rd bench and the prof seated on the 6th bench and facing the backwards ( facing opposite to the black board) ... and this ideal situation triggered me the plan of escaping out of the class and reach home early to make it to the mock test... my gut feeling was strong and I thought this was easily possible.
I had packed my bag and was waiting for the right time to execute my plan... as my name was called, I answered my attendance, within another 3-4 names being called for, I held my bag tight, without a second thought in a split second I just escaped out of the class... made my way through the sound proof auditorium which was adjacent to our classroom - which lead to the exit of the school building...
Was really happy that everything went well as planned... I did reach home on time and did pretty well in the mock test.. but later there was a small doubt, as what could have happened after I left the classroom... in no time I reached home, my mom said I had got a call from one of my classmate... a little worried me without thinking much decided to call her to know what it was, and that was the most threatening thing I ever heard... this was what happened, after I swooshed away from the classroom, the prof got to know as he turned to see me running out of the classroom.. and he came running outside and yelled at me to come back.. but because of the sound proof auditorium's doors and walls, I could not even hear a bit... and then he lost his temper and decided to mark me absent for 10 consecutive days for all his classes...and this would actually cause me problem to take up the board exams... but the trouble was he did not know my name and hence my roll number... to solve this problem of his, he threatened the girls in the classroom to disclose my name else he would some how get to know my name and also the girl's names who are after and before me in the attendance register and mark them absent too for 10 days... It seems there was a pin drop silence after he said this...
After a while a girl who was scared of his act decided to disclose my name and safe guard herself... and she did it.. and I was marked absent for 10 days...
This whole episode never let me have my dinner peacefully nor concentrate on my fav cartoon show, "The Popeye Show" and while I slept restlessly...finally a thought occurred to me, an action step for the next day to bed down the dust...
Satisfied with the solution, did manage to get some good sleep...
The next day morning I wanted to reach school early and I did reach there 30 min before the prayer... no sooner I entered my classroom everybody started making sounds at me, I knew the reason, so never got excited, I wanted to keep low, so placed my bag.. quickly made my way to this prof's staff room... and luckily he was in, looking at some papers probably reading a news paper or something... I went and narrated him that I was the one who did such an act the previous day and the reason behind it... I apologized to him saying that I should not have done it but it was not for some lame reason anyway ,finally convinced him to give back my attendance and so the problem was solved...
And guess what the girl who disclosed my name was really scared to face me... and she never had a face to talk to me, and the whole class got to know about this and started calling me "Lady Don" - what?? yes :) can't help... and many other names followed it after my various such daring acts at school....
This was one such day ... an interesting day at school.... :)which I'd love to cherish forever!
